The rainbow flag is a symbol of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) pride and LGBT social movements in use since the 1970s.


Sources Cited:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rainbow_flag_(LGBT_movement), http://www.poetrysoup.com/poem/what_is_at_the_end_of_the_rainbow_contest_747755, Biblehub.com
http://www.speakforthem.org/facts.html, http://www.dovechristiancounseling.com/Homosexuality-Lesbianism.html, http://williamsinstitute.law.ucla.edu/wp-content/uploads/Gates-How-Many-People-LGBT-Apr-2011.pdf,  http://www.patheos.com/blogs/warrenthrockmorton/2009/06/05/a-major-study-of-child-abuse-and-homosexuality-revisited/, http://www.bigeye.com/sexeducation/mesopotamia.html

To the LGBT Community:

I write this personal note to say this to you...

If I or anyone else who calls themselves a "Christian" in any way have hurt you or made you to feel condemned in any way or less of a human being, I sincerely apologize for that. You are so loved by God as much as we all are. You see precious one; in John 3:16-17 it says, "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him. In John 8:7 it says, "Let those who love without sin cast the first stone..." I am not here to cast judgment or stones because I too, am a sinner like you, in need of a Savior and Lord. In Romans 3:23 it says, "For all have sinned, and have fallen short of the glory of God."  I want you to read this page and pray about what the Lord wanted me to write to you. The information found herein is from much research, counseling courses, experience, and being led by the Spirit of God to express to you, the person reading this, that He loves so much and thought worthy to die for. He wants you to know, He has a seat for you at His table... and for you to come as you are...you see, in the divided world we live in, we don't have an LGBT vs. Christian problem; we all have a sin problem. Know that I love you and am here to pray with and counsel you to help you begin living a life pleasing to the Lord. ~ Love, Jen

As I sat on a bar stool drinking a soda, taking turns playing pool...
This woman came over, slightly intoxicated and stood next to me and started rubbing my thigh... I thought... here we go.... this is gonna be fun!  She has no idea whose thigh she's rubbing right now. She was just very friendly and was gently rubbing the top of my thigh...
Now, I knew as a Spirit led Christian the Lord directs my steps and I was there for a reason...

I could have been uppity, stuffy, had an attitude, but like when Jesus knelt down and began drawing in the sand waiting on God... I waited... while she stood there, casually rubbing the top of my thigh... She began talking to me and asked if I had children. I said, "Yes, I have five children." She said, "Five children? Did you have them natural?" Can I just say.......  "WHY DO PEOPLE ASK THIS QUESTION?"
1) That's kinda personal.  2) Is it that unnatural to experience natural childbirth?
I HATE to answer this question...

As modest a person I am, I fear people right then and there, will have mental visuals!! 


I am a person who believes in showing respect to others and a believer in Civil Liberties...
I love ALL people and as you continue to read, you will understand I will speak truth to you in love...

I promise to never tell you what you want to hear, especially if that lie would be detrimental to you....
I hold the stance that God created marriage between one Man and one Woman. When you research Scripture, you cannot find a marriage ceremony in the Old Testament. There are talks of weddings, husbands and wives, but in the OT for the most part, you will find Scriptures that say, "He went into the tent  and took her as his wife... or he slept with her and took her as his wife..." (Genesis 16: 2-3, 26:67,  29:23, Ruth 4:13 are a few references for you to get the picture). Now this is not condoning sexual sin or sex outside of today's 'marriage ceremony'. If it were, the Bible would not say, "Do not fornicate- which is defined as sex outside of marriage. One could presume there were ceremonies prior to the consummation of such ,that were more than likely withheld from the text. 


Ishtar was the primary deity of ancient Mesopotamia. She was the deity of all life, men, women, other deities, sexual power, pregnancy, birth, everything that was female, including war. Mesopotamia originated as a matriarchy and its goddess, Ishtar, ruled over everything including war and weapons. But as time changed, and men rose up, she lost some of her status as male gods began to surface who also bore weapons. Since she was the goddess of war, after victories, her temple of women would celebrate victory with a feast and sex. But when the matriarchy began to shift power to men, her temple became one of prostitutes. Ishtar was said not to listen to men's pleas unless the man visited an Ishtar cult. A woman that dedicated herself to the goddess Ishtar was said to have a sacred duty. All women were required at least once in their lifetime to go to the Temple of Ishtar (usually after they were married). They were to sit in the temple until a stranger came and threw a piece of silver in her lap. Then she was to leave the temple and have sex with the stranger, after which she could return home. She was not allowed to refuse the first stranger. Unfortunately, some of the less attractive women remained in the temple for years, waiting for a stranger to throw them a silver coin.
Men and women prayed to Ishtar for virility, fertility, and sexual power. Those in Babylonia that put up the most fuss over the Ishtar cults were married women, and not surprisingly, married men were the most frequent visitors. There were laws passed making it a serious offense to speak badly of the holy prostitutes. It was common to find phalluses at every temple and shrine and there were shrines of phalluses erected as well. A great temple was built for the goddess, Ishtar, who had many symbols that represented her.  The symbol was the star Peor.
The Peor cult is also called the "celebration of the phallus." This particular cult was really a public orgy. It began with an exhibitionist show of people engaged in various sexual acts. The finale would involve those in the audience joining in. The cult of Peor had the ass as their animal symbol and bestiality was a part of the show.


In Isaiah 14, Satan was cast of of the Heavens because of PRIDE and SELF-WILL...  Whenever I see anything with PRIDE or people insisting on their own will, that is scary to me... Yes, the Lord gives us FREE WILL to CHOOSE... but He wants us to CHOOSE to live for the ONE who gave us LIFE.

"Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live! Deuteronomy 30:19 

You may say, well the Bible is old... it was written by man... it's not relevant today... 

That is true, it is a very old BOOK, written by man, inspired and authored by God. The laws governing the truths and the consequences of not abiding in those truths are as real as the law of gravity. Whether you believe in it or not; does not change the fact it is there and it governs this Universe. 

In Ancient Greek art, there is a lot of phallus or penis worship by men. Men are generally depicted naked, including soldiers. Married or virtuous women are depicted clothed, even if depicted in the same artwork with their naked husbands. Prostitutes were generally depicted naked with naked men. Men liked to depict their own penises as dainty little penises in later Greek art. Early Greek art (5th century BC) tells a different tale. In the artwork from that timeframe, men gave themselves oversized phalluses. Sometimes they had double penises. They depicted plants as being penises in the ground. They even depicted animals as having penis features, such as a horse with an erect penis for a head or birds with erect penises for heads.
The Dionysus cult had a public parade every year in which the men carried the largest penis possible by a team of men in a parade through the cities. On the ass which Hephaestus rides, the animal has a penis erection. Even in Aphrodite's temple on Acropolis, the altars were topped with phalluses.
To Ancient Greece, the penis was the main symbol of fertility and they even created dildos constructed from leather and marketed them. The male idea of female sexuality was that Greek men believed that women envied their penises. Men created artwork displaying women with dildos. Female homosexuality and female masturbation are rarely depicted unless seen with a dildo.
Rape was common in Ancient Greece and seen by men as a "right of domination" by Greek men. Zeus, the god, was the master rapist who raped many women. He raped Leda in the form of a swan. He raped Danae disguised as the rain. He raped Alkmen disguised as her own husband. Zeus even raped other men, such as Ganymede. To the common man, they usually staked out water wells and then raped the women when they went to get water. It was also common to rape prostitutes, slaves, and their own wives.
                                                                                                                                                                                               Greek Goddesses
Hera was the queen of heaven, wife of Zeus, and the protectress of wifehood. But Hera was not actually the mother of the gods as Zeus somehow had the womb in his penis and gave birth to them.
Aphrodite was the goddess of beauty and love, she gave life, joy, love, beauty, fertility, grace, restoration of life, immortality, prosperity, and charm. She was the goddess of sexual love. Aphrodite is said to have risen from the foam of the sea. The metaphor means that she was a foreign goddess, an imported goddess. Some believe that she was imported from Phoenicia.
Athena was the goddess of battles. She had wisdom and intellect. She protected the arts and the sciences. By the 5th century, Athena was stripped of her feminity by men. In artwork her genital areas were robed, breasts covered. Sometimes she was shown wearing a corset of snakes covering her breasts. Other times men gave her a Medusa-like head with snakes around her head. Diana was the goddess of girlhood and virginity.
                                                                                                                                                                                       Prostitution: The Hetaera
Greek men believed that they had refined prostitution into the "hetaera" or a groomed prostitute. Hetaera were for pleasure, concubines for men's daily bodily care, and the wives were for bearing legitimate
children. Another Greek word for prostitute is "earth striker" or "chamaitype" which suggests that the prostitutes were not in beds, nor on fine couches, but had sex on the bare earth and dirt. In Pompeii
brothels had beds made of stone. Girl babies were sold to brothel owners. Men created a lot of artwork depicting sexual relations with prostitutes. Some simply show hetaera
urinating in pots, showing the male preoccupation with golden showers. Men did artwork of anal sex with hetaera. Doggie-style was the Athenians favorite position in their artwork with the hetaera. 
Beastiality was even painted in artwork of men penetrating deer, horses, and cows.
Apparently, many Greek hetaera disliked giving fellatio. It was a common practice to beat prostitutes if they refused to provide that particular service or refused to lower the price of that service. Anal
rape and forcing a prostitute to give fellatio was also commonly practiced. Even in men's own artwork of the hetaera, the did depict themselves beating various prostitutes and raping them. It was common to
beat prostitutes with fists, sticks and sandals. Some men did become attached to their prostitutes and painted them in more favorable and intimate artwork.
                                                                                                                                                                                            Male Homosexuality
Even though male homosexuality was common in Ancient Greece, it was censored in their artwork to an extent. In literature, it is called "love of a man for a man." In paintings, the homosexual men are
depicted clothed together, except for homosexual prostitutes who are depicted naked. When homosexual men wrote about their love for other men; the most loved boys were usually age 12-14.
Some homosexual men wouldn't even try to have sex with a boy over the age of 17.


I asked her if she had children. She said no, I am a lesbian. She said, "Do you hate me?" At that point I felt the need to tell her I was a Minister and said I didn't hate anyone. 

She said "Your people don't accept my people."  I said, "Well, your people don't accept mine." 
That peaked her curiosity, so much so, she began asking why the Bible says she cannot be in that kind of relationship. We had a very candid discussion about what God has to say about homosexuality. She really wanted to know why it's in the BOOK and how she didn't feel loved by God because she was wired that way. ( I don't feel they are 'wired' that way, it's either a generational curse, genetic curse, societal influence, imprinting from the parents and/or role models, lack of structured gender norms, they usually have issues with same-sex parents, and some have been sexually abused- according to LGBT statistics in Counseling LGBT Community)

The one thing I felt so convicted of in speaking with her... I shared with her that her sin was no bigger than mine... here she had had this one partner her entire life and me... well, we'll just leave that alone, but honestly I felt if there was a measure to sin... mine most definitely as a heterosexual woman would have trumped hers being a homosexual woman. 
The Lord gave me a word for her and I said, "The Lord just showed me you've always wanted your own child. To carry one." 
She started tearing up. She called her partner over, I spoke with both of them.  They asked if we could go out on the front porch to further the discussion.

We talked, I asked them if they would like to ask the Lord to come into their hearts. They said, "I didn't know we could." I assured them, the Lord turns no one away...

I prayed with them both, and right then and there on that little red porch, they both asked the Lord into their hearts. 
When we lifted our heads, to the right of us was about 7-10 bikers all in leather and chains who were previously drinking and cussing loudly. As I lifted my head from prayer;  I looked over- their heads were bowed too... they looked up, one said, "Amen", another was quiet and nodded his head, one did the Catholic cross thing in front of him.

It was an interesting night. What God now does with those two women is between He and they. I am merely a messenger, but I did explain what they needed to do going forward. That the Lord would give them a strategy in living for Him individually. That if they would allow; He would lead them onto His paths. 


Facts About Gay and Lesbian Youth Suicide

Suicide is the leading cause of death among Gay and Lesbian youth nationally.
30% of Gay youth attempt suicide near the age of 15.
Gays and Lesbians are two to six times more likely to suicide than Heterosexuals.
Almost half of the Gay and Lesbian teens state they have attempted suicide more than once.
It has been conservatively estimated the 1,500 Gay and Lesbian youth commit suicide every year.

​ The Lord takes very seriously sexual union between two individuals. The Lord spoke to me regarding the Supreme Court decision that it could not keep same-sex couples from marrying. (This is what the Lord told me and showed me.) "Let them have their Civil Unions according to the Constitution of the United States giving them individual Civil Liberties... they nor the SCOTUS will  ever change MY definition of marriage, they may have given permission for a 'contract' but a 'contract' does not produce 'covenant'.  When I created them male and female and told them to multiply and replenish the earth; it is when a man and woman join themselves together in sexual intimacy- an intimate union- an institution of a marriage covenant that includes the shedding of blood;  (that's why some Customs require a 'Consummation of Marriage' - the sexual act on the night of the wedding to seal the deal); it is in this place where you have one man inserting himself into the woman's holy of holies; (customarily shedding of blood as the hymen was broken) and it is in this place that I the Lord God, cause the two to become one flesh. This is MY definition of marriage and is hidden in such a  place, man cannot touch it or undo what is so hidden in such a high place in the Spirit. I knew the day would come that the Supreme Court decision would be passed in the United Stated and in other places and already made the terms and definition of Marriage sealed before I ever created man; well before I laid the foundations of the earth. 

Another experience I had one night when I went into a biker bar with some ladies after the Jake Owen concert in Fort Drum, NY.  There were two other Christians, my sister and myself who attended this concert that was for the homecoming of our Military. 
After the concert the ladies wanted to stop at a bar in Watertown to grab a bite to eat, it was late at night. They stopped at one place and they weren't serving food, so we proceeded on. My being a passenger and having a headache thought; here we go... something was going to happen and felt the Lord was doing something in where we would end up. 
We ended up at a biker bar in Adams, NY.       This is the one... the Dragon Lord Pub... 

Of the LGBT Community; I have found that within the perimeters of Counseling that most I have sat with, cried with, prayed with, and held... 

Many had issues with same-sex parent and sought to look for companionship in the same-sex as a form of affirmation they never received from the same-sex parent. 

Most struggled with the idea of how come they were 'wired that way' and felt ashamed and embarrassed only to 'come out of the closet' in a sense to relieve some type of burden they had been carrying, or secret they had been hiding, only to further experience the pangs of being rejected by family and peers for doing so.

Most had thought about committing suicide. 

Most had been raised in a home where no gender specific roles were taught. 

Most were raised up in abusive homes or neglected homes.

Some admitted experimenting with same-sex while under the influence of alcohol or other substances. 

Some admitted to 'experimenting' due to social and peer pressures. 

Most had identity issues. Looking for acceptance somehow somewhere. 

I had found in counseling homosexual males; they had issues with their same sex father. 

I had found when counseling homosexual females; more than not; they had experienced severe and often horrific encounters and interactions with males, whether in physically abusive or sexually abusive relationships.

Few said it was about sexual preference.

Most said they agreed their lifestyle had more to do psychologically than the physical sexual preference. 

Most had regrets and wished they could be different and I had a couple tell me the 'gay pride' thing was a form of escapism rather than expression. They truly wanted to put this wall up; this facade of pride to hide their hidden fears, low self-esteem, and feelings of unworthiness. As horrible as they felt about their lifestyle; they sure as heck weren't going to let anyone else know it. 

I have found a lot were exposed to an early on heightened awareness of sexuality and exposed to sexual perversion. 

Of the ones I had counseled; almost all of them were on some sort of anti-depressant and/or anti-anxiety medications, or exuded addictive behaviors. 

One common thread I noticed was identity crisis. Not knowing who they were. As a heterosexual female, I too have struggled with identity, so it was easy for me to relate and to explain how when we come to Christ; our identity is now found in Him. 




I have read that the worship of the phallus at the parades held in Ancient Greece & Mesopotamia where they would worship this fertility god was when homosexuality and incest and beastiality began to occur. As you can see, the dildo was made to be handed out at these parades as a mini replica of this fertility god worshiped, originally made out of leather and later even made out of marble and dung.  If you ever wondered if the saying, "the marriage bed is undefiled" and "anything goes" is applicable to married Christians; just know these would be like using a mini statue of Buddha... a god or idol to be inserted inside of a woman. Anything other than the real thing, is in fact an idol and upon further research I found out that the young virgins in Corinth who would worship the goddess Diana, knew a Messiah was going to come into the earth, born of a virgin, and these virgins would climb on statues and wriggle onto their erect penises to break their hymens in the hopes they would be impregnated by the gods and bear the Messiah. Upon further research it is said that God chose the Messiah to be born of a virgin; hymen still intact. 


 Genesis 9:11-13 "I establish my covenant with you: Never again will all life be destroyed by the waters of a flood; never again will there be a flood to destroy the earth. And God said, “This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come:  I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth."

As in the Days of Noah, Nephilim (Celestial Giants) were having sexual encounters in the land with human beings creating Giants, only later for the Lord to have to wipe them out. There was gross sexual immorality and wickedness and the Lord was grieved, so He sent a flood to wipe out mankind. We will see again in Sodom & Gomorrah the Lord raining down fire and brimstone. Notice on both occasions; when the Lord wiped out those who did wickedly in His sight; He spared the righteous. He has given all of us the opportunity to turn from our own wickedness so we would be spared. Genesis chapters: 6, 18, 19.

 An estimated 3.5% of adults in the United States identify as lesbian, gay, or bisexual and an estimated 0.3% of adults are transgender. This implies that there are approximately 9 million LGBT Americans, a figure roughly equivalent to the population of New Jersey.  Among adults who identify as LGB, bisexuals comprise a slight majority (1.8% compared to 1.7% who identify as lesbian or gay). Women are substantially more likely than men to identify as bisexual. Bisexuals comprise more than half of the lesbian and bisexual population among women in eight of the nine surveys considered in the brief. Conversely, gay men comprise substantially more than half of gay and bisexual men in seven of the nine surveys.
 Estimates of those who report any lifetime same-sex sexual behavior and any same-sex sexual attraction are substantially higher than estimates of those who identify as LGB. An estimated 19 million Americans (8.2%) report that they have engaged in same-sex sexual behavior and nearly 25.6 million Americans (11%) acknowledge at least some same-sex sexual attraction. Understanding the size of the LGBT population is a critical first step to informing a host of public policy and research topics. The surveys highlighted in this report demonstrate the viability of sexual orientation and gender identity questions on large national population-based surveys. Adding these questions to more national, state, and local data sources is critical to developing research that enables a better understanding of the understudied LGBT community. 

Egypt was and is a civilization of vast diversity. Ancient Egypt had  many different sexual behaviors and diversities: homosexuality, transgenderism, incest marriages, exhibitionism, prostitution, adultery, bestiality, necrophilia, and others. There were different customs  among nobility, common people, and slaves. Nobility had a wide range of marital customs and practically all sexual behaviors were  both accepted and condemned depending on the time period and the ruling class. This was similar with the common people, only there seems to be a more strict regime in marriage, and a variety of  punishments to those who broke the laws. What was acceptable among  slaves and concubines was dependent upon their owners. Although  has similarities to other civilizations, they also had unique sexual imagery and customs.

                                                                                                                                                                                                Contraception and Potions
                                    Different types of contraception were attempted, such as the use of animal dung as a form of a spermicide. If this failed, potions were derived to induce miscarriage.





There are that many LGBT Americans that need Christ. The Church has done much condemning without loving the right way. I don't know about you, but I was a party girl when I came to Christ. It has been a process of healing and deliverance for me.  It has been a process where along the way, there were those who loved on me, but also brought correction. When done correctly; I was reconciled to the Father... when done wrong... I walked away... When I read these Scriptures and see how serious the Lord takes sexual sin; I see how serious it is we effectively reach the LGBT Community for Him. Allowing them to come to Him first... and being patient with them while HE cleans them up. I am so thankful for those who were patient with me in the process....

I would not be here writing about this if they weren't... 

Church... we need to do better. We need to love better... to speak truth when led by the Spirit of God... when He knows they are ready to hear... but what ALL of them are looking for... is LOVE. True LOVE. Pure LOVE. We need to express that to them. Understand sin is sin and let those among us who live without sin cast the first stone.... we the Church have failed miserably at the attempts to reach the lost souls in the LGBT Community and Media has only added fuel to the fire and caused a greater chasm; a gap that we must bridge... just as we were washed and sanctified and justified... so shall they be, for the Glory of God. 

Sin is sin... with sexual immorality;  because it is a sin committed in our bodies which were created to house the Holy Spirit, is a stench in the nostrils of God. I have played around with it at times (sexual sin - sex outside of marriage) and I am sure most have... and I will tell you, that sin; I felt the worst committing because it was done in the body. We are to love the sinner, hate the sin... you, nor I are bad, for we were created in His image, it's the sin nature found within... that needs to be dealt with and we aren't to confuse the who, with the do...  and as my Pastor's wife told me once, "We aren't going to throw the baby out with the bath water..." as she loved me into living a pure life in Christ. 

"If a man lies with a male as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination." (Leviticus 20:13) 
"Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived, neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you. But you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God." (1 Corinthians 6:9-11)



Years ago, (after the fact) I had found out a woman I had shared a house with was a bi-sexual. When she finally admitted it to me that as a Christian she struggled with sexually desiring women. I had asked her how come she didn't tell me sooner... 

Her response, "I was ashamed and afraid you would reject me like everybody else..."

I got a lump in my throat. What was I, as a Christian, who is supposed to be an expression of Christ's love to others- What was I giving off that this sister in the Lord did not feel that I was a safe place to share and help pray her through and out of her struggle? 



Precious One,

It is not by chance you are on this page reading all of this information. I again apologize because the Church has not effectively done it's job in reaching you. I believe we tend to judge what we do not understand and in judging; you felt condemned. I understand completely what helped shaping you in coming to the decision to choose a same-sex partner. I came from a family of extreme perversion;  family stories that are no longer in the closet of incest in my lineage, experiencing myself molestation as a child and rape as a teenager. After that I became suicidal, drinking, drugging, promiscuous; I was out of control. When I took a course on how to minister and effectively reach the LGBT Community; statistically growing up in an abusive and neglectful environment; I should not be heterosexual. I fit all the criteria. Within that childhood environment, there were older males in my family molesting-fondling the younger children (male-female), there was a molester in our neighborhood who I have flashbacks of being in his apartment, dreams and I black out, but this man had molested dozens of young girls in our neighborhood. I don't have a memory other than the dreams of being there, the bathroom door opened, it being dark and him offering me ice cream sandwiches to sit on his bed in his living room. As a  young girl, frequenting a house of a relative that openly had alcohol, pot parties, photo's of nude adult males in their bar and orgies going on upstairs, as well as us children being exposed to the 'swapping of partners'. My parents had a store in our home that sold sexual novelties and at the age of five, I probably could have educated most adults on sexuality. (For the most part- these things occurred because of lack of parental supervision. KNOW WHERE YOUR KIDS ARE) I  grew up as a teen being introduced to pornographic movies and magazines only to find myself carrying that into my adult years, not being able myself to have a relationship with a male, and keep it pure before marriage. I tell you this honestly because it has been a struggle for me as a single woman. There was only one thing that had kept me on a celibate stretch for seven years as  my heart was to please the Lord and wait on His best for me and do it the right way and yet I have chords, wiring, modeling, temptations pulling on me at any given time. I don't want you to ever feel judged by me.  I write this to you, not because you're a lesbian, or a homosexual, bi-sexual or a transgender; I write to you because you are a human being in need of a Savior just as I am. I write to you in love and sincerity that on a human level; if we don't turn our lives over to the Lord Jesus Christ in THIS LIFE; we will choose to spend ETERNITY in HELL without HIM in the next.. Please click on the tab to the left for the Salvation Prayer and please surrender your life to the Lord. You may not have another chance to do so... Please reach out to me. I would love to hear from you, talk to you,  pray with you, helping you on your journey of becoming whole in Christ. ~ Love, Jen